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September 29th, 2006
July 8th, 2006
10:41 am - Blaise's Journal
So I woke up this morning fully dressed in my bed. I found a note from Teddy next to me, I guess i must have passed out. I slept so well though, I can still smell him on my clothes.
Dinner was great and his kisses hmmmm gets me hard just thinking about them. I dont know how much more i can take of this going slow. I might end up wanking myself off into oblivion.
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July 2nd, 2006
05:41 pm - Blaise's Thoughts
Dinner with Theo was wonderful. I felt so happy to have him back in my life at least in some small way. I don't know where there is going but I like how it has started.
I have no idea how I'm going to talk to Draco and Pansy about this. I wonder how Draco is doing. I wish i knew what was going on with him.
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June 30th, 2006
12:51 pm - Blaise's Journal
So this is what I was thinking of wearing to my date dinner with Theo. Its casual I know but I know he is not the richest guy. I want to make him feel comfortable. I'm feeling a little bit anxious. GAHHH ITS NOT LIKE WE HAVENT SHAGGED A MILLION TIMES.
Thats right Blaise no reason to be nervous.
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07:58 am - OH NO! I have to figure out what to wear!
The most curious thing happened to me as I was deep into my retail therapy.( Read more... )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/wink.gif) giddy
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June 29th, 2006
07:45 am - Blaise Journal
I finally heard from Draco, I was getting a bit worried about him. ( Read more... )
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June 26th, 2006
08:06 am
Things really have gotten screwed up. All from some silly article in the prophet, it was just a hug for fucks sake. Now Draco is pissed at me, Harry wants to rip off my balls. There is no telling what else is going to happen.
OH NO! What if Theo gets a hold of this! SHITE I have to talk to Lav when I get a chance.
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June 21st, 2006
07:02 pm - Blaise's Thoughts
So last night I had another horrible nightmare. I called on Draco and he tried to help but he could not understand. I know with how Theo treated him how he could be so against me even thinking about him. I cant help it though I have tried to push thoughts of him away as much as possible. It just seems to make the dreams worse.
On top of everything Draco seems to be angry with me. I only tried to be honest with him about his mother and to think about things rationally. When it comes to her though I don't think that reason factors in.
I need to talk to Pansy about this.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/blah.gif) blank
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June 20th, 2006
09:39 am - I had another nightmare.
Theo and I were on a boat drinking wine and laying on each other under the sun.( Read more... )
Current Location: Laying in bed
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June 9th, 2006
01:09 pm
I think things are pretty set for the trip.( Read more... )
Current Location: Layin in bed in boxers....
Current Mood: okay
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June 6th, 2006
08:25 am - Trip to the Americas
I received an Owl from mum this morning.( Read more... )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/thinking.gif) contemplative
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June 2nd, 2006
11:23 am
So I went shopping with Pans and had great time. I will be wearing ( this )
Current Location: At Home
Current Mood: pensive
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June 1st, 2006
10:18 pm - invisible to Draco only
So I woke up this morning pretty disoriented. I got up and I forgot where I was. I went over to Draco's but I must have fallen asleep or passed out. I left this morning close to dawn I dont think Draco or Harry were up. I am so lucky to have someone like Draco who is there I need him. I know he is dealing with so much but he still has time for me.
I got a letter from Theo which I did open. We are going to be apart for a while. He is getting the help that I could not give him and he needs to focus on himself. I still haven't forgiven him for threatening Draco, but I am going to keep my distance to let him heal.
At least I have the surprise party to look forward too. Its going to be great if poor Pansy can last that long. Draco has been giving her such a hard time, luckily he thinks I'm too distracted to remember. I cant wait to see the look on his face.
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May 31st, 2006
10:30 am
Well this dinner was a complete disaster. Not only did Draco leave in anger but Theo and I ended up in a huge fight. He had the audacity to threaten Draco and that I will NOT stand for.
I don’t know what is going to happen now. I am so mad I could scream!
I need to write to Draco and apologize.
Current Location: at home pacing
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/angry.gif) angry
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May 28th, 2006
09:45 pm - Love and Hate at Once
I went today to visit Theo, he's been a bit under the weather. I brought him some orange juice and some potions to make him feel better. Then we had an incredible mind blowing shag. I don't know what it is about him but I cannot keep my hands off him.
Afterwards we had nice bath together and I washed his hair. Then he started asking me about Draco and if he was better in bed than him. I don't know how to answer him sometimes. I tell him I love him and I do everything I can for him. Why isn't that enough for him?
He wants to have a dinner with all of our Slytherin mates. It will be great to get us all back together. Back in school Theo felt excluded from Draco, Pansy, and myself. I don't think we ever intended to exclude him, at least I certainly didn't.
I hope he will be ok during this dinner I know how his temper can get away from him. I don't want to be put into the position of him asking me to choose again. I don't think I could handle being put in the middle again.
I love Theo but sometimes he doesn't think about how his actions will make me feel. He is so full of passion and emotion its part of why I love him so much but also part of what pushes him away from me. How can I both love and hate something about a person at the same time?
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) restless
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May 27th, 2006
10:33 pm
Theo and I had the most romantic evening. We had a wonderful dinner and we got along fabulously. We talked over a few things and his anger issues, i know that things are going to work out.
After dinner i could not wait to get his clothes off. I had to take him right there under the table. We could not apparate back to his place fast enough to get the rest of our clothes off.
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May 22nd, 2006
02:50 pm - Gala Update
So last night we went to the gala it was gorgeous. Everyone was dressed wonderfully and the club looked amazing. Theo had to work so I kept leaving the party to go visit with him. At the end of the night we got together with Lav, and Millie and had some fun. Those girls are too much!!
I got a gift from Theo it was so thoughtful of him. I really hope he did not spend all his money on it. I was able to thoroughly thank him for it in the showers at the Seekers bathroom.
I did not see Draco there all night, I went to check on him this morning but he was going through something. He said he needed to be alone and told me to go away, I thought I heard him crying though. It’s a good thing I have known that little prat for so long or I would have been offended. I know if he needs me he will come to me in his own time.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) content
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May 21st, 2006
03:01 am - I was never so wrong
Theo came over today. I was never so wrong, he doesnt hate me at all he LOVES ME. I still cant believe it.
I am not sure what will happen or how we will make this work but it is a wonderful thing!
I have asked him to go to the gala with me i finally decided on this outfit.
Draco is taking Potter i hope he has helped him pick something decent to wear.
Its going to be a wonderful night!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/energetic.gif) bouncy
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May 20th, 2006
02:14 am - I will always remember that moment....
So i had a huge fight with Teddy.
I tried to go to him with an apology and a cute teddy bear i found for him. The arsehole was more than a bit squiffy so he throws it back in my face. Well then i lost my temper and blasted the bloody thing away. Then he tries to get my attention by attempting suicide just as the bloody Minister of Magic is walking by. Of all the rotten luck!
Then when we finally got out of there we had the most beautiful magical kiss. It was literally magical as we blew out all the light bulbs in my hallway.
I will always remember that moment.
After that i told him why i had been pushing him away and i started telling him how i felt. Then he said "oh fuck".
After i pour my heart out that is what he says to me!
After that i could not take anymore and i apparated away.
I cant even face him. How could i have been so stupid to fall for someone like that.
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May 19th, 2006
07:54 pm - Shopping Therapy
I needed to clear my head so i did some shopping therapy.
I am wearing the second one and the other two were some blokes at the store.
Check it out
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